10

Destroy thyself,

How then, 

the singular vague commandment twisting like bracken vines

two birds with one stone, maybe three, a flock 

by the end of the world, I will have you

on your side crazily rocking the rocking of a hundred geological chairs

ash and boulder -- where did i go wrong

How then,

slices of restrain, the cuts and scratches clawing deteriorate

drive this horrible rental off the side of my pristine path-paved mountain 

made entirely of powder, press them against your cheeks as 

there

the blood will stain the ballgowns gathered at the foot of my rocktower

How then, 

in my voicelessness, refusing to tremble before you, high and mighty

suffocating drowning in years lost to being closet-kept

unwilling, don't don't don't don't don't all the lives i cannot have

the answer kept gut-deep, bones rattling, with all the things I have been forced to swallow. 

what good does light if not in the darkness.

9: C'est notre maison

For years on end we have been immaterial,
Because years on end we have.
Infinity has never looked so small than when it is compared to beyond.
Unrelenting, we are light in perpetual motion
Breaking every barrier to break -
Bridges and buildings have no meaning in the long run.
We have stopped looking at the corners of our rooms;
For one should not go searching
For the dust they have shaken off decades ago.
Instead we turn to porcelain mugs and love -
Things that stay.
We find that hearts are harder to halt than matter.
And we'll find that
We can't stop.
And we won't stop.




CAN'T YOU SEE IT'S WE WHO OWN THE NIGHT
CAN'T YOU SEE IT WE WHO BOUT THAT LIFE

YEAEYEAH.

8: Distraught

Why:
Because you made me feel that, for once, I would not want to change anything at all in the world.


Just keep driving. Isang ikot pa.


Because for once, I felt sorry for all of the other me's in all of the other dimensions in all of the other timelines that night
because for once, 
it couldn't possibly have been any better.

Why not:
Because I am unsure if you think me special or just convenient.
Because I may just be some sick nicotine patch

and that you'll have me just because you can't have what is real.